It's Been a While

So I thought I'd check in.

Much has happened in the past several months, yet things look remarkably the same. That mystifies me.

I took on a roommate, that has presented its myriad of difficulties after having lived alone for five years. For the most part, it goes well, my house mate is a gay male in the program so it has become a relationship built on positive dynamics. However, it is sometimes a challenge to be loving, generous, and kind when I cannot deny that he and I are in very different places emotionally and spiritually. After a few months of trial and error, I am relatively surrendered about the way things are. I consider moving into a larger place and splitting things 50/50, but that presents a bunch of different fears to process. For now, its working, and I don't have to decide anything today.

I started therapy again, which is something I have contemplated for a long time. There was no shining moment of clarity, it was simply a decision that I made. Having just celebrated four years of sobriety, I just know that I am ready to deal with some very deep-seated core belief issues that are long overdue for revision.

Life is peaceful for the most part. I continue in my Wiccan studies to become an actual, legitimate first degree clergy member, which is honorable I think. I've developed another deeply spiritual relationship with my priestess, and it serves me well in my journey.

The next year for me seems to be designed around what a friend of mine calls "spiritual do-overs." I like that term a lot and find it fitting. Another round of out with the old and in with the new, continuing the revamping of my own emotional world, forming new bridges and discarding ways that no longer work for me.

The travel continues. The only goal to continue being and loving and expanding. The universe opens, and I sit patiently awaiting opportunities to trust god, clean house, and help others.

Love & Light, ~K.